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Sunday, June 27, 2010

OMG *hides*

I just finished WLA.

Okay, that's a lie. I FINISHED WLA a few days ago, let it sit, and finished EDITING it tonight. Like 10 minutes ago. And the first thing I did was drop everything and rush to tell all of you about it. Feel special? You should.

Actually, the first thing I did was send it to betas. So you're really the second people I've told. Please don't feel less special.

The only real point of this blog post is to rave about how TERRIFIED I am. I'm checking my email like crazy even though I just sent it to betas like 9 minutes ago.

I HAVEN'T SENT FOR BETA REACTIONS ON A COMPLETED MANUSCRIPT IN MORE THAN A YEAR.

AND I AM SCARED.

*gulp*

What if they don't like it? What if my characters SUCK? What if there's a HUGE plot hole that I missed and they laugh and I blush and have to change my name and hide under my desk for a few days until the blushing goes away and I can finally reemerge but by that time I will have lost my job which in hindsight wouldn't be a bad thing and I DISINTEGRATE??

*pants*

Yeah. I KNOW. Scary in my head, isn't it?

In all honesty, though, my beta ladies are the amazingest, bestest beta ladies on the planet and will be very nice in their mercilessness. Seriously. You should be jealous of the awesome array of passionate, supportive, SUPER SMART and oh so pretty beta ladies I have. I'm jealous of me.

But that doesn't stop me from biting my nails until there's nothing left and crying a little bit. I just bought three books today. Maybe I'll read them to distract myself. But reading them will remind me of how AWESOME authors like Jackson Pearce and Ally Carter are and how I WHITHER IN COMPARISON.

Nah. I just used the phrase "whither in comparison." So I gotta be something of a decent writer, right?

9 comments:

Hayley said...

You don't whither in comparison, and reading is a good idea it will keep you occupied. I've already emailed you back Sara, you have no idea how pumped I am for this!

Kathryn said...

I think most writers feel that way. I'm always petrified that anyone I send my writing to will not just laugh, but video themselves laughing and pointing their finger at the camera (symbolizing me) and then upload the video clip to YouTube and name it "Laughing at Kat's Awful Idea, join us!" and then the comments will be more people laughing and it'll go viral.

Lots of writers have scary minds. ;)

Congrats!!!!

Jill Wheeler said...

Wheeeee for WLA!

Did you get SISTERS RED? *jealous*

z said...

don't worry sara!

i feel like i need to tell you that i totally misread *pants* and thought you were using a clothing item as an expletive. long day.

Shannon O'Donnell said...

Yay! That's awesome news! Don't be terrified - be excited, be proud, be ready to move forward. :-)

Amanda J. said...

Woohooo!! Congrats!! (Sadly that's all I have to say at the moment. So have another one:...) WOOO!!! You're awesome, go you! :)

Jade said...

I am ALWAYS convinced my betas will send me back an email containing a single word: fail.

You should chill though. I think you're awesome therefore you are. That's the rules of the universe.

許瑋美 said...

IS VERY GOOD..............................

K. M. Walton said...

Reading is the perfect distraction. But seriously, don't doubt yourself that much. You need a good shot of confidence - read something you wrote & that you're proud of - it's a good cure for the doubties.