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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Smiley Face


I wrote stuff today. WORDS. In a STORY. And not just words-that-I-added-as-I-aimlessly-went-back-through-"editing"-because-I-had-no-motivation-to-actually-write. REAL WORDS. An entirely new scene. And it SUCKED. Hugely and profusely and painfully, and no one will ever ever read it. But I wrote it and it was glorious, and after I closed my laptop and packed up all my random stuffs (I'd created quite the little cocoon in one of the lobbies at mi universidad), I was

*wait for it*

Happy.

Happy, for the first time in a long, long time. Truly and unabashedly content. I walked to class, and it was sunny and warm, and all I wanted to do was lie in the grass and soak it in. For the first time in two years, I felt legitimately happy with who I was. I'd forgotten what that was like. To write something, ANYTHING, and find such joy in just creating. It's beautiful.

Speaking of beautiful: there's a movement going around that I find absolutely amazing. I channeled my new-found contentedness by spreading post-its all over my campus (sorry cleaning folks; but you're beautiful too!). It's strangely invigorating to leave mystery notes to people. So spread the happiness, yo! Keep the love flowin'.

7 comments:

inthewritemind said...

Glad you're so happy! :smiles:

And don't worry about your scenes--I've definitely got a lot of those that need editing. Just keep writing! :)

Jill Wheeler said...

I know exactly what you mean! That's what I've been feeling lately, when I find the time to write! I've been thinking a lot about the Fabulous Five lately. I feel bad about kinda dropping out when I was pregnant/had a newborn. But I miss the dialogue. Do you think you would be up for exchanging some work sometime soon? Maybe your dystopian project? I've got a YA paranormal/mystery that I'm working on. It's kind of like THE HOST in a weird way.

Natalie Whipple said...

YAY!!!

Hayley said...

Congratulations on the Happy! And I think the janitors will understand why you have to share it!

Sandy Shin said...

I'm so glad that you're happy. It's one of the most wonderful feelings that writing brings, and it's always lovely to get that.

Neurotic Workaholic said...

I know what you mean! Just writing a few pages in my journal is enough to make me feel good, even if no one else is going to read them. It's nice to know that someone else feels the same way about writing!

Nishant said...

Congratulations on the Happy!
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